Physically Exhausted, But Spiritually Fit.

Lately I have been finding my self second guess everything and letting fear rule my life. There is so much unknown things in my life right now, that I find myself getting scared and wanting to step back and get away, but this is not good! I have always had a tendancy in my life that when something is good, that I start to push it away. And I find myself doing that now and I need to stop! I have been second guessing myself and different spiritual experiences I have had and personal revelation giving to me wondering if my Heavenly Father really did give me those feelings, or if its all been in my head the entire time, because after all the mind is a very powerful thing!

So with all these things running through my head, I went to a ward activity Friday night, a Book of Mormon read-a-thon, hoping that I would get some sort of peaceful feeling or know what is right and settle these feelings going on with in me that I had only told my mom about. We met at 6:30pm to start this activity. They fed us dinner and then we were separated into groups to start our reading. The goal was to finish the whole Book of Mormon that night. We start reading and not too far into reading someone read Helaman 5:26. This verse stuck out to me more then any other verse. It said, "... Fear not, for behold, it is God that has shown unto you this marvelous thing..." When that scripture was read I knew that what I had been questioning and fearing I shouldn't be and that it those spiritual experiences I had had were from God and I hadn't made them up in my mind because its what I wanted. That scripture is exactly what I needed to hear at this time in my life.

We went on with the read-a-thon all night long. Reading for a couple of hours and then taking a break. We did this until 6:40am. I was SOO tired and was having a hard time still reading the last hour of this experience, but I was determined to get the most out of it as I could. I did not get to bed until 7am, but it was well worth it. The whole night was such a spiritual uplifting experience and something that I was in great need of. And although I was physically exhausted, I was spiritually fit and felt as though I could face anything thrown my way. I will never forget this experience and the feeling that was felt. I know that the Lord will answer the questions of your heart. He did for me, so He will for you too! He loves us and doesn't want us to question things happening in our lives. We just have to trust in him, because He knows what is going to happen in our lives and what we need.